Dark paths, Dark coasters, and the Light of God's Word

 Have you even been on a dark roller coaster? 

The kind where you strap yourself into the car and entrust it with your life as you are led around curves, loops, and drops that you don't see coming? 

This is what life has felt like the last two years. Despite our best efforts, my life with Milton has been very unexpected and unpredictable. At one point in this season, I looked at the following month. I didn't know which country I would be living in, who I would be living with, how I was going to get money to live, or whether I would be married or unmarried, among other life questions. I considered how I "should" be scared and uncertain. 

It is in this season that the Lord has taught me the depth of truth in Psalm 119:105:

"Your word is a light onto my feet and a light onto my path."

When you are walking on a dark path, the only thing you can see is what the light is showing you. You can't see the next turn, the dark cliff to the side, the animal lurking in the dark. You can only see the next step. Even typing this is giving me the heebeejeebees. 

Yet, a dark roller coaster sounds thrilling and exciting?! How???

Both the dark path and the dark roller coaster are essentially the same...I don't know where I'm going. I don't know what to expect when I get there. I don't know what surprises are waiting for me. 

But here's the difference. The dark roller coaster is a controlled path that has been tested. So when we get into that roller coaster car and strap ourselves in, we feel safe. We can trust the process. Even though we don't know the details, we know we will be okay and even enjoy the ride!

The Lord has helped me see that in my life. He is the trusted roller coaster car. When I look around to all the unexpected turns, drops, and loops, I become overwhelmed and miss the excitement and joy of the journey. When I focus on Him and know that I am definitely safe in His car, I can fully enjoy every twist, turn, and loop knowing that "I know how the story ends." (Thank you, Shane and Shane!)

May the Word of the Lord and the truth about Him that the Word reveals continue to guide our every step. We serve the Sovereign Creator of the Universe who loves us and cares for us. He will hold us and keep us to the end. 

"And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ." ~Philippians 1:6

15 more days until this earthly union <3

Undefinite amount of days until our heavenly one <3